self portrait

Nicole Brown

BFA - painting

I am one who has undergone so many trials and tribulations as a child. I was diagnosed with meningitis as a baby. I got picked on left and right by my peers in school. I also dealt with the loss of family members. There were moments where I found myself in a dark place that terrified me. It’s funny how people can remember the worst days of their lives so vividly and clearly while happy memories fade. Despite my past suffering, I pushed myself to become better and achieved many things. This is why there is so much to admire in a tree.

What is so special about a tree? It endures and, somehow, remains standing despite the abuse it takes from the environment and shifting climate. It is a living symbol of my life and the lives of many others. My work expresses this through mainly the use of color and the scenery. Bright and vibrant colors typically suggest feelings of happiness and joy while dull and muted colors signify feelings of sadness and depression. Sometimes black, white and shades of gray are useful in my pursuit of expression. But most profound is the compositional matter. The placement of the tree (and the presence of other trees) often showing moments of isolation, suffocation, or emotional outbursts. The trees, various sized branches and slightly distorted forms, come alive in each work.

Art has always had a therapeutic aspect that benefits a person’s mental health. Moments in my life seem to haunt me. Things that I wish I had the courage to do or say remain clear to me to this day. This tends to bring up a deep sense of rage and anger in me. I have better control of my emotions, but every so often I find myself in need of an outlet. This is where painting in particular comes into play. Each rough, twisted stroke of the paintbrush not only provides texture to particular areas of the canvas, but also provides an outlet for my deep seeded anger.

I am always open to allowing others to have their own personal perception of my work. However, I do want viewers to take with them the ideas that I intended to portray in my work. One day I want my work to have the ability to instill the strength and persistence in others that I fought so hard to maintain throughout life. Sometimes the bad days will outweigh the good days in life, but it should never be allowed to lead into ruin.






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